Congrates, Yiyi! You just passed the 3- month- long probation.
I kept asking myself if I am really a great fit to this job and I still can't find out the answer.
I know too less about myself. I don't talk to myself much.
I enjoy being accompaned, being along with people.
And I finally find some time to see myself today.
Time flies. It's almost 1.5 months since I have been staying with this company.
So far so good- I will say.
But there are still somethings or let's say someones I should spend more time on. Let's call it "E".
E is a person who wants everyone's attention. E talked loud and would do everything to let people see E's works.
I have to say E does a good job, but the way how E is treating other people is unappreciated.
"Watch Your Back"
It's an idom I heard many times, and today, I am using it.
I happended met the landlord tonight, and our first conversation wasnt about greeting.
Instead, he asked a few questions and intended to have me pay on extra money for the water fee.
Of course, I rejected it.
Aahhhhh, 不熟悉痞客邦的介面，連帳號密碼都試了好多回。
前天和兔寶聊天，他希望我能快快走出臭皮離開的負面情緒;但我一直認為自己的情緒早就平復了。直到昨天胃痛讓我想起臭皮，不止的眼淚讓我體認到自己根本還沒準備往前邁步，這也讓我想起以前看Criminal Mind提到 Elisabeth Kübler-Ross[的假設 <The Five Stages of Grief> - 當人們遭受重大變故時(例如: 至親的逝世、疾病或是遭遇其他悲劇災難等)所產生的悲痛情緒可能出現的五個階段反應，而我想自己大部分符合了。
1) Denial-否認
"我很好"、"這不是真的"、"不會就這樣發生在我身上" 無論是有意識或是無意識地拒絕接受事實，這是人們的自我防衛機制。對大部分人來說，此階段的停留時間不會太長。
---以我自己為例，當聽到臭皮病重的消息，我難以接受，只認為這是醫院的誤判。
Just before Wretch had announced its off-serving, I had been back there and checked all the photos. There were memories and many of my babe.
It took me half a day to download all the photos, and I picked some ready for printing. I had them play with the song "Miss You like Crazy", and I couldn't stop my tears.
It might be really hard for people to understand my sorrow and pain because they havent get the chance in their lives to have such a loyal friend, a considerated partner, and a supportive family member.
For all the time, I was thinking to write my feeling down, but I did not find a place to then.
But I have it now! And Here is my new start- my little fantasy planet and a garden where gorws beautiful flowers and juicy fruits of sharings.
